feeling a bit weird today. I was looking back over my account, and i havent loaded anything on in about a year. So i loaded a couple of new pics, and i think my style has developed alot. Its nice to see i am still enjoing art ins ome form even though now im trapped in media and the commercial side of art. But i suppose i may get a job this way :s
im feeling a bit lonely, i was suppose to be doing my essay all day but i got bored, and hit a point where i need to do some library hunting to be able to finish the essay properly.
i recently went on a freedom trip to plymoutha nd portsmouth, and have since felt liberated, free and soo happy. today i guess im just coming back down to earth.I kept thinking about just taking off and going travellinglike i so wish i could somtimes. But then i realised in reality it would be terifying, and id only ever feel comfy doing that in countries where i understand the culture, and so mainly european or western, which is not as fun and adventurous really.
I dunno, i guess i just wish somethings in life were not so fixed. But if they wernt fixed i guess id miss them, and just look for them else where.
anyway i think when i was away i realise how much i love taking pics of people, and doing portraiture, just need more willing friends o do so.
i have an event at the end of the week i have been invoted too. I should go because i can get my face around with the people doing films and plays at the mo, but the social side to this degree sucks somtimes havign to be a certain type of person, where certain clothes, and be generally nice, chatty an friendly to everyone. its so fake and shit.
i do like the guy whos birthday it is, but some of his friends are a bit odd. Just be another self concious night.